While they were concerned, she seemed fine. Lovato went on a “shopping spree” that night and combined meth, molly, coke, weed, more alcohol, and Ox圜ontin.Īt the time, her friends and family knew she was drinking again. She went to a party and ran into her old drug dealer. “I’m surprised I didn’t OD that night,” she admits. Feeling miserable and stifled, she decided to drink red wine that night and within 30 minutes had called someone she knew who had drugs. “I don’t even know why I’m sober anymore,” Lovato remembers thinking to herself on a photo shoot. Lovato broke sobriety two weeks after she celebrated six years sober. On that tour, she began relapsing with her eating disorder and over-exercising because she felt uncomfortable in the more-revealing stage outfits she felt like she needed to wear. “I feel like decisions have been made for me more so than I’ve made decisions for myself,” she said in footage for the scrapped 2018 documentary. Those restrictions, however, only made her relationship with food more complicated. Her present-day friends, who were interviewed for the documentary, noted that they have had to be “careful” with what and how they eat in front of her due to restrictive policies put in place by her former team to help her not relapse. Lovato goes on to thread her competitive nature to her life on television and as a pop star, noting that she carried that same self-punishment into her teen years. Her own mother also struggled with eating disorders. “I remember actually making a pact with myself saying, ‘If I don’t win this pageant, I will never eat again,’” she reveals. The focus on looks and beauty created self-esteem issues before she even reached puberty.
Lovato began doing beauty pageants at a young age. Pageants prompted her struggles with food at a young age. “He needed to realize he needed help himself.” “Ultimately, I realized that he was too far gone at that point,” the singer adds. He died alone.”Īs an advocate for mental health, Demi has struggled with feeling like she wasn’t practicing what she preached with her own father, who had bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. That was the fear I always had for him, that he would end up alone. “And then also knowing by the time Father’s Day rolls around he was lying there rotting. “Every summer now that rolls around, I spend it thinking, ‘Was today the day that my dad died? Was it tomorrow?’” she says.
Father’s Day happened sometime between his death and the day he was found, and the holiday now holds significance for Demi.
The date and time of his death are unknown: Patrick’s body had been left undiscovered for more than a week and was too decomposed for an open casket. He died after a battle with cancer in 2013. Lovato and her dad, Patrick, were estranged for most of her life due to his own battle with addiction to drugs and alcohol, as well as his abuse toward her mother. The star felt guilt over her dad’s death. Some of the footage is used in the new film, although much of it picks up in 2020 during the coronavirus pandemic. Cameras captured a bit of her partying again and even writing her confessional ballad “Sober,” but the project was scrapped after she was hospitalized. Unfortunately, her descent back into drugs and alcohol that led to a near-fatal overdose that July was happening behind the scenes. Lovato was filming another documentary in 2018.įollowing the release of her sixth studio album, Tell Me You Love Me, in late 2017, Lovato invited a camera crew to capture her on tour that following summer.
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